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November, 1999 - Part Three

Updated December 2, 1999


I'm Thankful on Thanksgiving
By Craig Landers

I'm thankful today for so many things, the most of which is you,

you make my life special each day, I hope you know this is true!

So on this Thanksgiving day, though we're so many miles apart,

as morning, noon and nighttime come, you're always in my heart!

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These Days
Robert Gallant

These days are crisp..

These November days are

very enchanting.


Snow paints the surrounding earth,

the air is cold and bare.

My breath takes shape.

My hands hibernate.


These days are all

I ever wanted.


Christmas is hiding around

the corner.

I can hear it, I can

feel it roaming up my body...

...chasing the bad energy out,

cleansing me for the new year.


These days hold a lot

of memories...

Many milestones celebrate

anniversaries during this

time of the year.


I can sit on the windowsill,

completely protected from the outside,

and let the magic of November

pollute my eyes and my heart.


Hot chocolate, Mittens,

Toques, Winter Jackets,

Boots, Snow Sleds, Honest Walks

and a chance to own everything....

...these days are what I live for.

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Raindrops
Wendee White

Raindrops falling against the wind,

like the tears on her soft pale skin.

Her lonely heart set afire,

Filled of her only hearts desire;

To be with him the one she loves.

Where once was high is now below.


Raindrops falling on shattered glass,

as she conceals what is left of her past.

Sometimes "it is over" is hard in taking,

hoping and praying it was love they were making.

Now it is over; no more pain, no more grief.

No more anger, sorrow, or disbelief.

For now the love that they once shared,

is in the raindrops in which she stared.

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Christmas eve
Lily McCutchan

Driving today

In the cold and bleak winter rain

I saw an old woman selling roses by the side of the road;

so frail and sad

that I hated the heat that blew

warm and bitter against my cheeks.

And I was sickened to the core of my being

by everything I'd taken for granted

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You are there for me through good and bad,

I kind of think of you like my dad.

You bring me fishing in the spring,

and try to teach me everything.

I try to do the things that you say,

but when I fail you say, "thats ok".

Hunting and fishing are the things you like to do,

you also enjoy playing horseshoes.

You and your truck have been everywhere,

you two make a good pair.

I know how to drive a stick shift thanks to you,

is there anything that you don't know how to do?

You helped me buy my new Grand Am,

and I always think it's funny when you say "damn".

We have had a lot of fun,

but it has only just begun.

bmr

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A Pale Gold Flower

You brought me into the light

taught me how to love the mad life

made me a slave of your spiritual, magic smile

ethereal creature to the writer's discerning eye.


You danced with the tragedy of my heart,

kissed my pain with crystal tears,

burned my body with your heavenly lips,

perfect beauty to the jealous eye of the moon.


You cried when my soul fought with the fire

and turned the flames in ocean's waves.

You laughed when my hands admired your face

and made me the God's own mad lover.


Pale, gold flower upon a slender stem.

Sidorela Risto

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TO JACKIE WITH LOVE

IF EVER YOU WALK

THRU THE HOT SUMMER SAND

ALONG THE BEAUTIFUL BEACHES

OF GOD'S WONDERFUL LAND

ENJOY THE SALT WATER

WITH YOUR FREEDOM AT HAND

AND FEEL THE WARM SUNLIGHT

AS IT TANS YOUR PALE SKIN

APPRECIATE THE SEA

AND LET IT'S SPIRIT IN

FOR THIS IS BUT A GIFT

A PRECIOUS LOAN

FROM GOD

TO MAN

BIRDIE LACOMBE

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THE BOY IN MY LIFE
Calia Scott

Your warm breath in my hair

As I cradle you in my arms

You are all my missing parts

You fill my void of loneliness


When I saw you, that day in May

It was love at first sight

I didn't plan on this love

But now it's here and

I'll never wish it away


You are so soft, warm

Fill my heart with joy and love

To think I almost gave you up

My sweet baby boy

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My Place
CATommyGL

I want to find my place
In this great human race.

I want to make myself a name
And never will I lay blame.

I have dreams of the future
To which I must nurture.

The world stands ahead
To which i need not be led.

I'll never look back
Even when my world turns black.

For without you I'll go on
And I'll take with me my education.

I'll be the best I can be
Without the fear of just being me.

Don't you worry, I'll find my way
I'll take the path less traveled today.

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Hypocricy
Brandy Seem

I hear my mo in my ear talkin' about, I need to be an independent woman,
never worked a day in her life.

I hear my dad, sayin, "work hard, set goals, so you ain't like me, sweat
on your brow for someone else's crust.

I hear my sister sayin' "I need a role model.", but if I were her, would I
look up to me? I don't think that I would.

I hear my teacher's sayin I need an education, try to get one, but the
people around me just won't shut up.

I hear my cousin sayin' "Prison's hard, you gotta wake up." Eighteen months
maybe this time.

I hear Mr. Preacherman, talkin' out his neck, sayin' I need religion.
Maybe he should practice what he preaches.

I hear Jerry sayin' "You have to love other's before you can love yourself."
Yeah, right, and his ratings really come from people loving each other.

I hear them sayin' "Can't you hear me?" Hear, yeah, I hear. Maybe I just
don't listen.

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IRISH HOPE .
IAN.S.HOWARTH

SHATTERED GLASS AND BUCKLED STEEL ,

BUSTED BRICK , A FORD ESCORT WHEEL .

THE ODD FLICKERING FLAME , DARTING AROUND ,

AND LOTS OF RUBBLE , UPON THE GROUND .

A PERFECT SILENCE , FALLS ON THE STREET ,

FOR THOSE WHO ARRIVE , WHAT A SIGHT TO MEET .


BROKEN BODIES , A TWISTED MASS ,

A FACELESS CHILD , IT'S A WEE YOUNG LASS .

A BLOOD SPLATTERED PRAM , IN THE ROAD ,

WARNINGS CAME TOO LATE , WITHOUT A CODE .

THEN IN THE DARKNESS , SOMEONE SCREAMS ,

THEY'LL SURVIVE , OR SO IT SEEMS .


AMBULANCES ARRIVE AND THE FIRE BRIGADE ,

THE STREET WILL TAKE MONTHS , TO BE REMADE .

IT'S THE DEAD AND MAIMED , WE HAVE TO THINK ABOUT ,

WE'LL REMEMBER THEM , WITHOUT A DOUBT .

THESE SENSELESS KILLINGS , WILL NOT BRING PEACE ,

THIS MEANINGLESS VIOLENCE , MUST NOW CEASE .

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Happy Irish Independence Day! Yesterday!

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Watching Mason Play
Brenda Vanderford, copyright 1998

From the kitchen window,

Between dusty curtains,

I watch you playing in the yard,

Pockets full of Boy Treasures,

Hair full of sunshine and sweat.


My heart beats double-

Once in love, once in envy.


Tell me what it is you see,

As you lie on your belly

And watch ants march over dandelions.

Help me to remember how it felt,

To see the world from three feet high,

Down there, where magic is legal tender,

And God wears work boots,

And carries a tin lunchbox.

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I'm going to try to do nothing at all

to quit trying to think

Of words of and of rhymes to please your heart

of things that upset me.


My garrulous chatter means nothing to you

and my love for you means less.

You think I'm incapable of anything at all...

But you tell your friends I'm blessed.

Teyie

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LISTEN
By: A.Cox

I don't understand,

why you do the things you do.

This has never happened before,

it's all completely new.


I wish you would just listen,

that's all I really ask.

Is that too much to do,

is it that hard of a task?


I swear that you don't hear,

a single word I say.

I wish that you would listen,

or please just go away.


You don't understand me,

you don't even try.

What is it I have to do,

for you to tell me why?


Could you just take a minute,

to try to understand?

Listen to a friend in need,

or lend a helping hand.


From this moment on you remember this,

and soon you will see.

What is really happening here,

and know it's not just me.

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You are Different from the Rest
By Missy Groll

You stuck with me

when the going was tough

warded off my fears

and comforting my cries


You never left my side

when I was scared or alone

what makes you the way you are

why are you so good to me


Its all in your heart

everything you do

everything you think

and what makes you different

from all the rest

is all too easy to see


You took me under you wings

when everyone else turned away

your deep brown eyes

full of sympathy

sympathy that needs not be given

but yet you still do


You believe in me

and never let me fail

you tell me everything will be all right

for some reason you care

when no one else does


And for all the things you've done

all the words in the world

could never express

my gratitude and gratefulness

to have someone like you in my life

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They're Falling Apart
Jess Wilder

I miss them,

I need them,

I wanna see them


They're the best,

They're nothin less

Than what the best can be.


When times go bad,

And ne f us is sad,

We're there for each other alwayz.


But thingz are changing.

They're falling apart.

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A Young Mistress to Her Aged Lover
Danielle Laliberte

Here we kneel

before the Alter

your hand in mine and

my hand in thine.


I am virgin grapes

still ripening

on the

vine,

You, my love,

are vintage

wine.


Come now, ye workers

of the vine

and harvest me

that I may become

wine


And we may

no longer toil

over sands of time.

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Untitled~
Brandi

I'm gonna love you forever

through good times and bad

through happy or sad

and my love for you will grow and grow,

that's something I want you to know.


But when my tears fall from anger and trust

I know I'll still love you

in fact I know I must.

I hope we'll be always be together now and forever,

get through the tears and through the strain,

because even loving you causes me pain.


You don't mean to hurt me,

or even make me cry,

But sometimes you always know I do,

and still later ask me why!

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~*Stolen*~
Ellie B

Maybe its your smile

Maybe its your laugh

But whatever it is

It makes my heart beat fast

Maybe its your mysterious eyes

Or maybe its your love for art

But for some reason

Its ripping me apart

Maybe it's the way you look

Across the room at me

Maybe it's the silence

That comes when we're apart

But now I know for sure

That whatever it is

Has stolen away my heart.

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Fishbowl
sfonline

There you are, I can see you clearly.

One thing that I love so dearly.

Do you know how you are taunting me?


On the outside looking at you.

Seeing what I need, but unable to grab you.

What I hate, I must push through.


Final piece to the puzzle, brings the rest into play.

All that I need, so close yet so far away.

Reaching into what I despise.

Taking away the thing which I need to stay alive.

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wind blows shut the door,
i rise and sulk over
to close it once more.

injektilo

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life is a bunch of dragons

life is dragons

life is both

dragons are humans

humans are dragons.

chantelle tate

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park scene

sweet smell of pine trees

mayas on the benches

smooth sailing frozen breeze

on the soft green green grasses.


a beautiful collegiala

sipping a cheap cold soda...

too soon the fog will fall

witness only by mossy wall.


HARNIFER LUMANOG VALERIO

november 23,1999

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your luxury
-sherri laponsie

the wind swirls around the leaves

snow is coming so everyone believes

a text with a meaning no one knows

wipe it away and what shows?

see the sunset, such a beautiful sunset

the clouds pose as a slightest threat

i am you and you are me

so let it go and let it be

you are leaves, i am the wind

i want you so bad, oh lord have i sinned?

who is a luxury? i can be yours

when it rains it definitely pours

the sands of time run slowly

the sacred light i hold so holy

you are time, you make me whole

i paid the price, while you catch my soul

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HEAVEN
KATIE SAFFIOTI

Life is short, make it the best,

you let the days go, then notice the rest,

you look at your life, its down a hill,

you try n pull it up with all your will,

you try n try, until you just die,

you notice the world you left goodbye,

your now in a world where the sun always shines,

and everything seems to be just fine,

you never knew of a place so great,

without the pain and without the hate,

this is the place that you've wanted to see,

this is the place where you've always wanted to be.

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Wings Of An Ice Cube
By ashley evanik

This game you play and I know why

starts the hurt from inside

Under which i toss my head that shows I feel

and pain is real

You will say things that will be done

What if your life was nothing but a gun

Will you know what to say if you die

Would you say good bye or hi

or if you live to 101

Will you think your life is fun

I've never really found eternal peace

Just broken pieces at my feet

Will you help me when I die

Will you cry and wonder why

When this flesh touches flesh

Is it of perfect mesh

But when your heart has said its in woe

All reality begins to slow

Technical life and under the hood

On a down town love or in my wood

things come within this feeling of gay

which straps me down and rapes the day

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Storm
JOSHCID

As the midnight lord draws overhead in a cloud of darkness

I hear his booming laughter shaking the land

I see his long fingers raping the city

His omnipresence scares children and animals

But as quickly as he came this demon of the night

He leaves to terrorize another region

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Princess Misery
Sarah A. Haynes

My body is weak and left behind .....the shattered door of dreams

I carry with me, for eternity, an image of Hostility


I'm burned inside deep down inside because of mistaken trust

Soon though I will become alive again when my body turns whole to dust


I say I strive...I say I'm here... to conquer the world ahead

But I'm withered and weak

And again yet I speak...Of only the peaceful dead


My soul was lost years behind

Soon after I learned to speak

It was taken from me a thousand times...

By obedient misery

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---Dying Star---+
-Thomas Russell Giboney

Somewhere in the distance, out of sight, in the night

Moved with ease through the weeds and reached a tree which it held tight

Little squirrel scurried up, and up, till at last it was out of sight

How bright the field looked, on this full moon & starry night


My thoughts drifting towards a shooting star and it's rewards

Some wish I can wish to help rid me of my bore

Thinking still I glanced uphill and laid eyes on a wonderful surprise

A streak of light preceded by a bright ball lit up the surrounding skies


Quickly my thoughts changed to find a way to rearrange

My status of single on this last star's twinkle, for someone with love to exchange

I've been alone so long singing my sad, sad song, praying to god for a companion

Just want to experience love from around and above, filling my hearts deep canyon


Grant me this wish, someone to hug and kiss, someone to watch over me

Happiness can not be bought, and neither can love be caught don't you agree

Love is a gift for the caring and lately I've been failing to be the kind person inside

But the life I have reflects it bad, and so I must rise above and not cower and hide


Sweet star, you have blessed me with your presence and your sweet luminescence

And now I feel alive and free lost in the starry expanse I see feeling your lost essence

Be on your way now and I don't know how but I'll manage another day

Maybe my wish won't come tomorrow but I'm positive all my sorrow isn't here to stay

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THE DAYS YOU ARE GONE
WILLIAM SMITH

A soft kiss

A gentle touch

I will miss

Cause I love you so much


I'm speaking from my aching heart

The one you held

And promised to never break apart


I'll always remember the good times we had

Even though most of time it was bad

That just made me love you more and more


I'll try to sleep when you leave

But the heart break i'll receive

I'll shed tears and release my pain

I just hope I don't become insane


I'll cry because I miss you

I miss your soft kiss

Your gentle touch

God, I love you so much


I miss you

Come back to me baby

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When winter first begins to bite

He sits alone on his seat of stone

Losing all but heart and head

Not knowing what will happen next

There was a time

When the world was young

And the grass was green

And the leaves were long

But then the blood of man was mingled

With the blood of a wild beast

teeze

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Morning after Saturday Night
by Nicole Kleppinger

Scattered loneliness I know all too well.

In this time, in this place, the world

is a bitter bale, and no

solace of a loving embrace will

be mine any time soon.

I have seen the fires, the raging twilight that

exists in everyone but me, and

I ache with the knowledge

that I am not able to love.

These modern courting rituals leave

me feeling lost, with gross

older men that gyrate against my body

with their hot flesh trying to press

inside of me. Physical, sexual, non-

committal shit is what I say.

No, I'm not angry.

No, I'm not scared.

I am alone, trying to find my way

to a world with sweet winds

or white puffy dandelion heads that I can

blow and separate into their own worlds.

We live as these weeds do, thrust together

for some reason, by chance, by fate, by accident

and something eventually blows us to our own

lives. Life, with true living,

awaits me.

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"Child"
Jenifer Lynn Maroney

The lucid strength I had melted...melted...melted...melted

The glass tears I cried fell to the earth and shattered

I ran for the rainbows end...never finding the gold

I found nothing...nothing but you

your strength

your love

my only desire

I broke your concrete world

I gained myself...the self you had showed me to be

happy

Happy- I was until you took my glass kingdom and burned it to the ground

You buried your past in my consoling arms...taking everything I had to offer

You packed up your clothes

You packed up your desire to love me...and disappeared

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LET LOVE FLOW
BY LW AKA PP

THOUGHTS OF YOU RUN THROUGH MY MIND

OH HOW I WISH I WERE KEEPER OF TIME

I WOULD BRING BACK YESTERDAY

AND KEEP YOU HERE SO WE COULD PLAY

I HAVE THESE MEMORIES OF YOU IN MY HEAD

MY DARLING WITHOUT YOU I AM DEAD

I FEEL YOUR WARMTH INSIDE OF ME

FOR MY LOVE I TRULY SEE

HOLD ME CLOSE DON'T LET ME GO

JUST LET YOUR LOVE SLOWLY FLOW

WITH YOU ALL IS SOOTHING

THERE IS NO MORE CHOOSING

LIKE A FLOWER I AM READY TO GROW

I JUST WANT TO LET MY LOVE FLOW

WITH YOU I WILL ALWAYS WIN

IT HAPPENED ALL ON OCTOBER 10.

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Prayer For My Daddy
Misha Larrison

My body is covered with scars

Yet you cannot see

Invisible to the eye

Yet they are a part of me- my life history

Stuggles come and go

But He will never leave my side

Though I cry out at night and feel out of control

I know it's His plan

His love will make me whole

Wondering at times how I'll ever make it through

I open my eyes to see Him ever new

Reaching His hand out to pull me up

Crying for my heart to be broken for Him

So I'm broken tonight and fall to my knees

Crying to out to You, rid me of this disease

How could I be so blind

I can't walk this path alone

It's only through You

That I can be brought home

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AESTHETICS
to Shakespeare, Poe, Blake Byron, and Rubén Darío.
CARLOS GARAY del MORAL

 

I sing the aesthetic afternoons

a coloured light mint imagined by me,

Lo! a meridional sun, a spike of rays,

the sense of Life and Poetry

that landscape it is. No time and away.

Otherwise inner my mind Sees

Alas! wearied my spirit and soul

by some strange and Deepest Hearts

talking words unspoken and dark

under a pallid moon,

as a black living lake

of corruption and desire, all dammed,

in the shadow and dim of their thoughts

were neither God nor heaven

have ever been or a place taken,

and thereafter, a fight against pain,

like a sorrow chanted before

in a Rubén Darío's Poem.

Oh Lord!, remain ASTHENIA (*), remain!

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golden boy
by wendy k. sanders

moons bound by the force
we separated rejoined
love is the healer.

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The Last Good Bye.
tj Grider

When our last good bye came.

I knew this was no more a game.

No more hopes to make things right.

This was going to be our last night.

I couldn't make things up to you.

There was nothing else I could do.

I could only cry.

And, wish that was not our last good bye.

There was not more gleam in your eyes.

As days passed you by.

I guess we grew apart.

But, you stole my heart.

Our love grew old.

At times it even seemed cold.

I only wanted us to last.

But, now I'm just apart of your past.

Our loved died.

When nether one of us even tried.

We let it slip away.

Little by little everyday.

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PAIN
jester

The pain I suffer everyday touches me inside

It digs and bites and keeps me down

I hold it back as long as I can

It fights harder than I can

I push and shove to make it stop

My only relief is sleep

No thinking just sleep

It damages my conscience

I try to work it out I try to remove it from me

The pain just comes and never stops

When I see her I can't control it I define my feelings and try to stop them

It doesn't work it just hits me harder

I can't let it go she means too much

I loss myself in it I waste away and crash to the surface

My barriers are gone it comes full force

I let it come I let some go

Some just stays and brings me down

Down Down Down

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I need to leave this place

if only in my mind

escape without a trace

allow me to unwind

a place where I can go

and sort out all my thoughts

a place where I can show

my plannings and my plots

no one else can see my finds

so hidden from the view

you see its all within my mind

behind my eyes of blue

so if you need to leave

a place to go unwind

just sit back and relax

and travel in your mind

ole obrian

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Liar you proclaim

then Liar you become.

Lies you can't contain

once the word 'liar' leaves your tongue.

grantonio

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Sun Glare
Corey Waller

Sun glare in my eyes

as I begin to cry

sing me a song

write the wrong


Sun glare in my eyes

as you say goodbye

a picture you can draw

catch me when I fall


Sun glare in my eyes

as you tell me lies

Tell me a story---so

I will no longer worry


Sun glare in my eyes

blonde hair blue cries

Remember the face---so

I can return to this place

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This nagging itch

stings like a doctor's stitch

fist clenched--

pulsating veins--

can't complain

keeps me sane

a place I go where no one

knows my name

I can dance

I can sing

pain and tears

slipping away

swimming, burning

twisting, turning

Half naked memories

chant through my mind--

without pulling a tear

from my eye....

illskin

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BELIEF
By Dawne M Evans

His tongue lashed out cries,-

those words hid-

behind open truth.


His kiss burned-

fire from his lips,

slowly,-

as paraffin drips.

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TEAR DROPS
By Nancy Applegate

I was sitting in the dark finding tear drops

falling down my face why oh why does love

have to be this way.

For this love between you and me has to be

set free.

These tear drops are for the warm arms around

me that are not there now.

These tear drops are for the sweet kiss

that are kissing someone else.

These tear drops are for the lonely nights

with out you.

These tear drops are for all the I love you's

that you say to your new love.

I felt myself crying in my sleep this is why

I wrote tear drops.

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Love is the greatest power,

greater than can be thought of.

Nothing can come between

2 people being in love.


They share the same feelings,

they share the same vows.

But when it comes to honesty,

It is something they can do without.


But yet the truth needs to be told,

honestly to their partner.

But after the lies has been unfold,

the lies they would prefer.


The honesty break their hearts,

The honesty break their hopes.

But mostly the memories that they share together,

Blows up in smokes.

eandres

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SET FREE
Katie Friedmann

Geek to freak is what I want to be

looking at you looking back at me

listening to my every word

making you understand all the pain inside


just letting it out letting the world see me inside out


the cheer of the crowd is what i need

hit the first riff and i'm set free

now your in my world were pain and suffering is god

how does it feel now that pain is your god?

feel the pain run throw your veins

the only thing that can set you free is the lose of reality


For these few minutes we can hide

and forget the pain from the outside

this is the only world where you can survive

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The days that seem to be so long, The night's that are just to short

you never thought it could be this way until the word love came in

and decided to abort

The confusing words of wisdom, that never seem to help

The never ending sorrow of no freedom and knowing that he never felt

All the times that I have cried, because he was never there, and never know if he loved you or if he took life just as it was dealt.

I hate you for never saying it the simple sentence called

You know!!! the one that means i love you

But most of all that I hate you for,

Is never being true

Mandy sue

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BROKEN HEART
M.Selby-Brown

Many hurtful words were spoken, can't turn back hearts have been broken.

Sadness takes over my soul. "Does your love come with a toll?"

What will I be but empty, blinded by this love I cannot see.

Feeling stranded without your touch, alone with the loss of so much.

Tears overcome my eyes and heart. All of my wishes have come apart.

Life consists of many ups and downs, with every turning point coming round.

I weaken in strength every day, my simple dream asks you only to stay.

You will never ever see me crying, but inside I am slowly dying.

I pretend I don't need you each time that I see you.

Only realizing my dream has ended, with a pain in my heart that can't be mended.

A ache deep inside the pain so real. "Do you hurt the same, how do you feel?"

Emotions ran wild, we set each other free. Holding each other is were I long to be.

Lonely, and broken my world seems to crumble. But love is blind so through life we all stumble.

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Roses
John Leibniz

Roses they cover me

The smell intoxicates me

But they all turn to orchids

As I slowly begin to wither and die


Lay me in the ground

A place for me to rest

As I feed off of the earth

And the earth she feeds off of me


Alone but not lonely

Mother Earth she caresses me

She strokes my hair gently

As if somehow to reassure me


Relax sweet child

Poor lost restless soul

For the spring is drawing near

The seeds of hope lay buried with you


Finally spring arrives

The ground begins to soften

Moisture trickles through the soil

It washes my sins away


Roses they cover me

The smell intoxicates me

No more orchids to steal their scent

I am home now mother I am home

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A Familiar Face
ajay

I'm standing in a place I know very well

yet I feel lost

I don't know where I'm going or where I've even been

I don't know who I can trust

I feel distant from all the people around

All the familiar faces are starting to disguise

I'm trying to clear all these events out of my mind

When I don't think I can take anymore

Out of the crowd comes a familiar face to see me through

What will happen when the familiar face doesn't come

What will happen to me

Will it be my end

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Sleep With Me
by Amy Vallis

I can't sleep tonight

I couldn't last night, either

or the night before that

when my eyes close

I hear the conversations

that never existed

except in my head

words I never said

and I blink my eyes

to rid the memory unmade

but even when I am awake

I am dreaming

I wish there were some voice

to drown out my dreams

to keep me from remembering

whatever wants me

to remember it

~~~

The floor is cold on my feet

and I can't sleep

I pull fast the dark blanket, warm

and close my eyes again

only to stir with the pressing

knowledge of a nightmare

or dream so vivid I might

touch it

and hear the emptiness of a message lost

in the darkness

wondering what I was trying to tell

myself

~~~

I still can't sleep

I remember tender touches

lonely mornings

lonely afternoons

dusty kisses

hot tears slipping

down a turnèd

untouched cheek

arguments that never existed

questions unanswered because

they were never asked

dialogue that never was meant to be

time forever always full

but emptier still in longer hours

~~~

I dream now when I am awake

finding tangibility in phantoms

knowing that this insomnia

is some manifestation that

mimics my regret, unfathomable

transparent

so what good is dreaming

of a reality unspoken

~

I can't sleep tonight

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Remember The Night
Stacy Zindle

Remember the night you held me beneath the twinkling stars,

We made a wish together, That time seems so far,

I asked of you your feelings, I asked for your heart,

It was too much to ask, I caused us to part.

Your eyes never told me what I needed to hear,

If you would have just held me near

And revealed a tiny bit of your soul

But I came close and you pushed away, I felt you letting go.

Still I held on and you took me to the edge,

Then cut me to the core and said, "Let's just be friends."

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On Your Wings
Joseph J.

It's charming to fly so high

And all the way beyond the red horizon!!

Over the wild blue fighting waves

Besides the wild springs and flowered forest;

Dancing and chatting to the plants beside


Above the calm, gentle river among the forest

With all its beauty and charm to enchant

I felt envious of the rich style of their life


Am excited to see the vast green paddy fields

Where the sweat and toil ripped

The patting wind passes as a soothing hand

The plants' joy comes as waves

Seeing the richness and elegance of the nature

I just can't save worshipping Lord ALMIGHTY!!

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"Memories"
Dannell Renae' Dollahan

Oh why, oh why did you have to go, and leave our world so cold? God had planned and called you away to a better place to stay. It only seems like yesterday you were here to stay. Oh how much we miss you but we look up in the sky and see an angel so high. Someday we will be in sweet heaven with you, but until then we have great memories of you by our side.

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Mystery

Not knowing Enough

Afraid to ask More

The silent Voice

But familiar Face

And Mirror of my soul

The intercourse of Incompatibility

Plays 'neath the moon

Hides from the sun

A Conclusion concealed

Which compels me

To leap from Earth's edge

For want to sense the fall

Dan Brouk

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A PANORAMIC MOMENT IN TIME
by lori eskamo

I sit, leaning on the cold hard wall of the school

That cement that we call the walls of our prison...

Faces sit around me: eating, talking, laughing, singing; aging.

Yet, are we all the same?


"How are you?"

"I am fine."

"Good to hear."

Every time.


Summer ends and fall returns that makes the sky turn grey

And winter blooms and spring is here

Summer comes again.

And the cement remains

Rules rules rules

They are our chains.


"How are you?"

"I'm hurting now."

"Sorry to hear."

Deep somehow.


I sit, leaning on the cold hard wall of the school

The cement that confines all of our faces...

Shields that surround me: blocking, molding, falling, breaking; aging.

Yet, will we be the same?

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"Attics of Mind"
AvaAdore

Crawling through the attics of my mind.

'Til I found myself. And I was so sure.

Now I'm thrown into something deeper to find me.

I've lost myself again, it seems so endlessly the same.

I throw it all away just to find it again.

I put myself through hell, just to forget who I am.

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What love is like
Jessie andersen

Love is like a flower, warm and beautiful with each growing day.

But because nothing lasts forever, love will wilt and die away...

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FRIENDS
KELLY

WHAT ARE THEY?

THEY ARE AN ANNOYANCE

THAT'S WHAT THEY ARE

THEY ARE PEOPLE WHO TRY TO RUN YOUR LIFE

EVEN THOUGH THEY SAY THEY'RE HELPING

NOTHING GETS BETTER

ONLY WORSE

SO WHY ARE THEY HERE?

THEY ARE HERE BECAUSE THEY ARE LIKE A VIRUS

THEY ARE STUCK TO YOU WITH NO WAY TO GET RID OF THEM

THEY STICK TO YOU SO LONG

THEY PUSH YOU OVER THE EDGE

THEY PUSH YOU SO FAR

YOU CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE

YOU GET SICK OF THE WAY THEY PRETEND TO CARE

AND THE WAY TAT THEY'RE JUST THERE

BUT YOU CAN'T GET RID OF THEM

BECAUSE THEY'RE THE ONLY THINGS YOU HAVE IN THIS CRAZY WORLD

AND IT'S NOT FAIR

THE WAY YOU TRY SO HARD NOT TO HURT THEM

BUT AFTER A WHILE YOU JUST DON'T CARE

SO WHY ARE THEY HERE?

TO REASSURE US THAT THEY DO CARE?

BUT YOU JUST CAN'T BELIEVE THEM BECAUSE THEY KNOW YOU DON'T


FRIENDS ARE A CONSPIRACY

THEY COME AND GO SO QUICKLY

THAT YOU JUST CAN'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING LIKE THAT

IT'S A WAIST OF TIME

YOU PUT ALL YOU HAVE INTO TRYING TO BE FRIENDS WITH THEM

AND IN THE END

THEY'RE GONE

JUST LIKE THAT

WITHOUT A CARE

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LOOK AT KELLEY

WITH A BELLY

FILLED WITH JELLY

AND HATES BEING CALLED NELLY

SHE OWNS GREEN EYES

AND LIKES EATING PIES!

SO SHE DOESN'T DIE!

cUTIE PA TOOTIE

NO SHE AINT A DOODI

I LUV HER SO

DON'T U NO?

VKRASNA

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WITH_OUT YOU
Michelle


As I lay here all alone

I think about you & I

I miss you oooh so much

I just breakdown and cry.


Why are we so far apart??

Tell me how this can be

We should be together

Me luvin You & you luvin me


Ooh how this hurts

The two of us apart

Baby I need your love

This is breaking my heart


As I cry myself to sleep

I hope and I pray

That maybe tomorrow

good news will come my way


I awake the next morning

The sun on my face so bright

I reach for you beside me hoping

You had come home to me last night


But no I'm still here alone

My heart breaking in two

Cause this will be another day

Another day with-out you .......

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my life in hell
-casey kirby (99)

there's not a day that goes by that i don't catch a glimpse into the eyes of their ignorance; those eyes that used to consume my own. I've done so much that speaks so low of my image, my marking, my place in this world... my soul cries. Those i've opened up to have only used against me the one thing that i've got, my mind. "just take a swig of this, a sniff of that, a puff on one of these..." and to anguish my pain, i followed. I seek help. who can i trust to understand the true spirituality of it all? Who isn't one of them? How much longer can i resist becoming one of you?

You've all touched me, raped my body, then tried to smother my soul with lust and toxins. Yesterday I might have joined the parade, today i resign. I'm not sure which choice is more painful: falling in or out. I feel like tearing apart all of your pictures and placing the pieces unnaccordingly- you'll all still look the same. you will all still be demons with masked faces and I will still fear your next attack. God, if you can hear me, please send me one true soul so i don't have to go about this all alone.

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Crush frantic sweet sweat.

Delicious man whispering please.

Beauty soar rose sleep skin.

Blue sky dream music.

Moon bed spring sea near fall,

always smooth after he. A true kiss

only sincerely weak lick rain

blow gorgeous head as shadow away.

comic_book_chick

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HAUNTING THE HEART
Schmo55

There is a sad eclipse

haunting the heart

A darkness edging close

snails pace

different time

different place

Hold onto the shadows

uncover when you can

smile wide and sigh

A cleansing outward breath


For now,

watch it pass

Crawling lower than low

a cadence not quite in step

Touching your life

O' how she crept

like snails pace

There is a sad eclipse

haunting the heart.

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JUST THOUGHTS
Faizal Gender

I thought that she's the one, I thought she's my everything,

And yet sometimes I felt I hate her,

And I sense that she hated me too.

Maybe it's me or maybe it's the fact,

Maybe I am trying to avoid her,

Maybe I'm jealous,

Cause I can't get anyone who I desire.

She's pretty, she got everything,

and yet, I can't accept the fact

"I Love Her"

I don't know why nor do I know how I hate her.

It seems that it appear to my thoughts in a sudden,

A few second I saw her, I love her,

And the I hated her.

Can't tell nor think,

How this thought would appear!

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WAR

Fearful

Adults,

Screaming

babies,

Crying

solders,

Laughing

killers,

Flags are burning,

Children dying,

People burning,

God is crying.

MetalicaWoman

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Silver Faith
elmoswain

How could you ever love me?
I don't understand.

How can you love me?
I just do...

How did you fall in love with me?
It just happened.

Why do you love me?
Uh, I don't know.

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He Who is.
By Matthew Timmons

The word of the Lord is bright and ever flowing.

Like his salvation and Glory which brings us constant strength .

Seen through the eyes of "He who is and will always be" the world is viewed

in a different light.

Depiction of the end made apparent as time presses on.

Non- Believers raise questions as to the existence of eternal life.

But for those who have never questioned, there is no doubt.

We have all heard the voice inside of us...

BUt only a select few have chosen to listen.

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was
bob

was

was not


when

when was


fuc...


oh god

let me wonder

lo...


who

could you


why...

was

was.

shadows

shadows far

...and far between

was

not...was.

-was

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~ Idle Words Upon A Page ~
By: Paula Lahr

These are just idle words upon a page, No words of wisdom, no deep sought sage

Just feelings felt between dream and wake, Written for my own souls sake

Thoughts of passion, thoughts of pain, Thoughts from nights drawn well past sane

Thoughts of love and if it's true, Thoughts of dreams left to pursue

Feelings that wake me in the night, Words tapped out in shakes of fright

Some words brought on by utter joy, Or words not said when feeling coy

Boundless pages of my soul, From time and life taking their toll

Riddles that speak miles if left to be heard, From times that I left pass with out a word

Or from a moment when I showed strong, Though all that touched me just felt wrong

Some from moments you might know, Others from times when a smile show

These pages paint a picture of me, The side of which few ever see

My words come, from all I feel, Only honesty, what I see to be real

A poetic princess some might say, But we'll leave that for another day

Just some girl with a story to be told, Trying to write it before it grows old

Nothing special to be seen here, My feelings no different that should be clear

Though if you want to know what lay deep, From these pages knowledge you will reap

Of a girl both weak and strong, Hideous and pretty, both right and wrong

Sad and joyous, hurt and healed, Tempting fate and knowing it's sealed

So look on with an open mind, A piece of you, you'll surely find

For we all have idle words to write, I just open mine for public sight


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